Well things have gotten strange around these parts: A number of my friends are MIA at this point. Aeden is tied up with 18 units of school, and a new 'houseguest'. My good friend Ian was supposed to move to Los Angeles and got held up with the weather, so I don't know if he made it yet. Otherwise he is homeless and jobless in portland. He doesn't answer his cel phone (and i know he has it on, because it called my wife's phone for 3 minutes while it was in his pocket). At any rate, I am feeling a little unloved (rightfully or not) by my friends.

Oh well. They are my friends so I guess I don't care that much, but it would be nice to hear from them.

E-

~music:
A3 (Alabama 3) - Mansion on the Hill

~so how long you gonna wait until
~you get the keys
~to the mansion on the hill?

Nothing really going to speak of just kind of a general update. Might actually be able to make the DevMeet this time around which would be nice to actually meet some of the local devs. From what I understand PDX has the largest collection of Devs (willing to meet that is). Some of that probably has to do with how pro-creativity this area is. Kind of refreshing even coming from somewhere as enlightened about such things as the SF bay area.

got a WP up this time, mostly submitted it because i created something, no matter how simple it is. Also got started getting my shit together about becoming a graphic artist, registered for school and stuff. This should be a simple thing for me to do, and more than likely I will find it an intensely rewarding career (hopefully). About damn time I got off my ass and did something career oriented. Also learning Japanese. Planning on learning Russian as a group of us are planning on moving to Europe soon (as in a 3-5 year plan), mostly because this country is going to hell in a handbasket. I don't know how marketable japanese is going to be in europe but russian couldn't hurt. Krydannia (my wife) is planning on learning Spanish and French, which should both be handy, and she is half Mexican so it is cultural too. By the way, Japanese is a damn hard language for Americans to learn.

now that I have totally rambled on I think I will drop this off. No-one but my wife and a couple of friends actually read this drivel anyway...

Oh, and Aeden if you do read this, I wanted to congradulate you on your recent promotion/new job mr. manager-type-guy.

anyway, much love to you all, you know who you are.

X-

the plague has ntered my boddiiieeeee.......

I live in the wonderful Pac NW where suddenly temperatures have plummetted, sinking me into a deep illnes which has me house ridden. At least kry has seen fit to grace me with her presence during these dark hours, at least when she isn't working. And well, maybe I am being a bit melodramatic, I mean after all, it is just a cold. Still, it is keeping me from doing my job as I lost my voice this morning, and I answer stupid questions on the phone all day.

X-

~music:
violent femmes
Country Death Song

Man this is a effed up song....

I am a lowsy artist... not that I don't have talent, but talent isn't everything. You need to be able to produce work, and lets face it: I am not producing. Maybe if I berate myslef over this I will get off my a$$ and produce something instead of just scanning in crap from 3 years ago. theoretically I should have become a much better artist since then, but I have my doubts.

~music:
Tricky
Evolution Revolution

maybe I am just taking myself too seriously. could be, since I am writing to myself mostly. Oh well. I should try to work on some stuff for the Backspace and see if they want to put anything up. I should try to see about framing the stuff I have though, because a lot of it would be good choices to go up.

Halloween! Yay! I love this freaking holiday! only bitch I have is that I haven't got a costume and I have a party to go to tomorrow. Guess it is time to pull out the sewing machine and get my ass to work...

~X

~music : VNV Nation : Kingdom (Restoration) - Standing (Empires Burning EP)

I hadn't posted in a while, (work has been hellish lately, and that is where I actually do a lot of my updates) so I thought maybe I should. I was reading Phillip K. Dick's VALIS recently, which ties in with my previous entry. I guess just prior to his death in the early 80's he had some really strange experiences. He claimed to have been blinded (temporarily) with a beam of pink energy which transmitted information directly to his brain. uh huh. (could be the years of heavy drug use?). At any rate, some other really strange shit went down at the same time, all of his pets dying of cancer/radiation(?) posioning, one of the pieces of information that was 'beamed' at him was that his son (who was a little over a year old) had an ingueneal hurnea, which would have killed him (the doctors missed this) and the information saved his son. Again, I say ' uh huh'. Well, regardless, it was the seed for VALIS, quite possibly one of the most warped and paranoid books PKD has ever written. The wierdest part is, it is a trilogy.

At any rate, if you like reading about pre-catholic christians, pink laser beams of information, suicidal delusional writers and the illuminati then this one is for you.

I digressed completely; anyway, the point was that I guess maybe I am not the only abstractly religious person who has a (mild) obsession with the unknown and unknowable. I guess it is fairly natural for us to seek the answers to what we don't know or understand. As such we will all seek it in our own ways, and with the tools we were raised with, or found. I with my art and literature, others with their books of knowledge. I guess the difference for me is that I am not satisfied to have the answer handed to me; I am to cynical to believe that someone 1200 years ago figured it all out. Of course, to go along with that, what makes me any better equipped to come up with those answers? I am no holy man, no devout.

Eeek. I really need to get out more.

X-



He took a duck in the face at 250 knots...